Frustrated..
I am not haveing a good day here today.. I have tension in my left leg and I am
freaking out about it.. worring about blood clots and all kinds of stupid crap
like that.. but before i get to that.. let me give you some background about
me.. I am 24 and 200 lbs as of this morning and I am 5ft 7in. I was always
around 150lbs until 5 years ago. I have never been diagnosed with any kind of
health disorder other than mitrovalve prolapse and it is so extremely slight
that it was not diagnosed on an EKG because it was not seen there, but a nurse
detected it when I was in thie hospital while in labor with my1st baby and I was
pushing.. which is enough to give anyone mitrovalve prolapse.. ne way… I dont
take medication for it and it never bothers me I would never know about having
it if the nurse didnt tell me I had it back in 2000.. that is the only health
problem, if you would even call it that, that I have.. other than I no longer
have a gall bladder either.. but nothing bothers me as far as food goes…
okay so here is why I am frustrated.. I have been on Atkins since the 25th of
Feb.. nearly a month. I have lost a total of 10lbs, but I keep gaining and
loosing the last stinking 5 lbs for the past two weeks. At my two week mark, I
had lost about 3 inches in my waiste and I keep loosing and gaining those last
two inches. *sigh* I have only caved in one time and that was four days ago. I
am in ketosis.. have the strips and have been testing myself.. but they are not
dark at all. Instead they are moderately pink and I have not had anything that
is not allowed for the past four days. I have what I call tension in the calf
muscle of my left leg.. I woke up two nights ago with my left leg (both the calf
and the thigh) feeling like they wanted to go into a charlie horse, but they
wouldnt. So I have been reading about Potassium and sodium.. I know it is not my
sodium.. I am getting about 2000grms a day and I knwo it is not dehydration.. I
drink about 3 to 4 qts of water a day.. so at this point I am just flat out
disgusted with things. I am afraid to work out because it might cause a lack of
potassium which can lead to heart attack or stroke.. *sigh*… so other than
eating a banana or potatoe, or taking my Basic 3 suppliments, I dont know what
to do to get more in my diet.. gawd, I just spent like $75 at GNC yesterday and
an additional $75 at the grocery yesterday too getting meats and veggies and
such. I feel like giving up because I am not seeing any results at all and this
little venture is doing absolutley no good for me and is no longer an enjoyable
one.. I dont have cravings, I am not hungry.. I just cant seem to figure out
what it going on with my leg.. just getting flat out disgusted. It is taking up
my center of attention and I am unable to get anything done for reading about
all this shit trying to figure out what to eat and what to take as far as
vitamins go to help it. Seems that everything I read about Atkins is telling me
to watch out for “factor A” and “factor B” and it is all because of “factor
C”… I think I eat a balanced range of foods.. tons of greens, eggs, meat and I
snack on an Atkins Advantage bar if I want something sweet, which is what he
tells us to do. But nothing is working.. I am a size 18, used to be a 10 and I
am beginning to beleive that I am never gonna be that size again, so who cares..
*sigh*.. not a happy day as I write this while I am in tears… : (
Angie in Ohio
Cheers,
Angie in Ohio
www.GillyGals.com
205/195/130 - since Feb 25, 2004
“Nothing tastes as good as being thin feels!” - Oprah Winfrey