Such a quiet group these days!
How is everyone doing with their April Challange?
Me? I’m struggling!! I “re-started” Atkins AGAIN this week and it’s
been more difficult then ever before. I’ve follwed Dr. Atkins’ plan
very successfully in the past (lost 40lbs!) but since I fell off last
fall I’ve had a heck of a time getting going again. I’ve started a
few times and was able to make it to about 1 to 1.5 weeks only to
wake up one morning and start eating carb laden foods without any
thought!
I started again this last Monday and it’s been by the skin of my
teeth that I’ve made it to today (Friday). It hasn’t been a perfect
week - I succumbed to pizza on Tuesday night and then, feeling
defeated I had a bagel the next morning… but as I made my way to
lunch that day I had to fight myself to ensure that I purchased a
good, Atkins friendly meal.
Over the week (and more so, the last three days) I’ve been repeating
a phrase, or mantra, to myself that includes three important words:
I’m determined, dedicated and vigilant. I also keep telling myself
that it will get better when I move past the craving stage! Man it’s
been difficult!! I should share with you all that I’m doing my best
not to beat myself up - I understand that alot of what I’m
experiencing right now is emotional because I’m continuing to
struggle over my mom’s death last December. I so badly want to eat
because food numbs the pain. Part of me says I should just grieve
right now and not focus on following a specific eating plan/way of
eating. But giving in to that desire often translates into eating
whatever I want when ever I want it. Not good!!
So… I’m sitting here, hungry (yes, I’ve had a good Atkins breaky
and lunch is soon so I’ll be okay). But I’m dedicated, determined and
vigilant!
Keep up the fight… and lets start chattering again!!
Victoria